Getting back to awesome...and it feels GOOD!!!

So this last week has been SO great! Things have been improving daily like it should have done from the start and it feels SO good!.....I thought that doing the exercises to pull the scar tissue apart inside of me was going to be just as bad as the pain I felt 2 weekends ago...but (knock on wood) it seems that, that was the worst of it! I have been a little sore by the end of the day and feel a little pulling and sharp 'tweek' here and there. But NOTHING like the first big one so, WOOO HOO!!!! So on Sat morning at 5:30am I couldn't go back to sleep after I fed the baby and I was laying there listening to my house of boys snoring away...even the dog snores! LOL! And I thought, "I'm going for a walk!" So I quietly got on my workout clothes. Stuffed my breastfeeding boobs into my Lulu top and off I went.....It was amazing! It was so quite and the air was so fresh...gosh I had missed this SO much! I almost felt like the morning was saying to me, "HI! There you are! I've been waiting for you!" I wasn't even to the end of my street and I started to cry....a good cry....a grateful cry...a happy cry and a cry of relief!....I walked for 29min and did 2.3k in that time. I felt really good about that and know now that, that is my base line of the official start of my training. AND I figure if I'm doing that now then in 3 months I will be good to go to do the 2.5k distance in the Try-Tri race in Sept.....and when I realized that and thought about crossing the finish line, I started to cry again.......so it felt so great to get some of my 'normal' back, cause that's what I use to do before... sneak out of the house on the weekend while everyone was sleeping and go for a run...only right now it's a walk :) AND!!!!! I'm SO pumped for tonight as I am going to see Jillian Michael's in Hamilton talk. This is MAJOR for me since I started this whole journey while watching the Biggest Loser and hearing her straight forwardness and words of encouragement on the screen, I also listen to her pod casts on my runs/walks....I had got the ticket a few weeks back and wasn't sure if I was going to be able to make it, as I wasn't even able to sit on my own for more then 30min at that point....but it was just another good goal to work towards to do what I have to so that I would be able to go...so I'm going tonight and I have a feeling it's going to be AWESOME!!!!!!

This is going to be......interesting!

Ok SO! The journey continues! My husband ended up having to call an ambulance this weekend to help me get to the hospital because I was now having pain in a different spot and new hot burning pain so bad that it was shooting down my leg and I was in pain no matter if I sat/stood or laid down....not fun!...after many tests and 3 different doctors checking me out (one being my family doctor) we have found out this.....I not only had a c-section when I had Landon but I also got my tubes tied so there was a lot more going on in there this time and a lot more to heal...which means a lot more scar tissue. The problem started when I got the bad sinus infection right after I had him and had to lay/sit and get better. So that means that all the scar tissue healed with me all crunched forward. Now that I am starting to move around more it is all ripping apart...hence the hot burning pain...oh joy!....Since the physio therapist came on Thurs and I started doing some new movement it has started the process that needs to happen of ripping it apart from where it has healed so that I can move around properly now. That is why the next day after the physio I had the new pain and in a different spot. So it seems my journey will now entail me doing the physio exercises to get things moving then enduring the pain it will cause to rip/pull the scar tissue back into a better spot.... I'm not going to lie I kinda feel like crying just thinking about it cause the pain this weekend was so bad and I am so wiped out from it that I am still recovering from it.....but I guess like everything else I'll just have to take it one day at movement at a time :)

H.O.P.E.

I once heard a great break down of the word hope....Hold On Pain Ends...that's how I feel today :) The Physio Therapist came to my house this morning as I am still not able to get out on my own with the baby yet. She assessed my whole body and as she was doing that she kept saying, "Ya wow that's weak"...now I know that my body has taking a beating over these past few months and that I am not at my pre-baby strength, but it was just a bit of a downer to hear another professional confirm it for me :( However as we went on she was telling me all the different type of physio exercises that I can start doing and I started to feel excited. Excited because I was consulting with some one who knows this stuff better then me and she was finally presenting me with some more solutions to getting better. I just have basic knowledge with my personal experience and professional training. So it was really great to learn some more things from a specialist. Plus I was totally able to understand the exercise she was telling me about and how to increase them over time. So once again I will be at home with myself in my head as my own trainer making it happen...just like when I first started this whole thing 3yrs ago! Today was also the first day that I started to feel a little down and frustrated about where I'm at and how slowly things are coming along. But after she left and I had a list of the exercises to do, I was in the kitchen getting lunch ready thinking about how I was going to make the time to get in all the exercises that I need to do. I then started crying, because I felt hope....I just knew that there WAS going to be an end to this and I WAS going to get better and better from here. AND I finally felt like I WILL be crossing that finish line in Sept for the Try-Tri distance at Kelso!!...before today, I hadn't been so sure. I texted Nancy our Mommy's/Babe's Head Coach after I wiped the tears away, " I feel more confidant about building this body up properly now. I'm going to cross that finish line in Sept...It's going to happen!" So here are my goals for this summer: 1. Do my physio exercise daily and through my day 2. add in walk before I get the big kids at the bus at 3pm 3. Walk the 1k Meredith Hagan Kids Fun run, Moon in June with the baby and my 4yr 4. Do the Meredith Hagan Insperation 5k trail walk (that would make her very happy) 5. Do the Try-Tri distance in Sept at Kelso 6. Do the 5k Island girl race at the end of Sept (walking or jogging...where ever I am at, at that point) Ok I told you all so now I HAVE to do it! LOL! 'Live in YOUR Awesome!'

Going to rehab!

Ok SO the journey to a strong body...here we go! Now this is where I am currently starting off...I can't go out of the house for very long and I can't sit by myself in a chair for more then 30min right now without starting to shake, sweat and feel like I'm going to throw-up...it's just too much on my body right now. So when I say a strong body I am not talking about lifting some weights or going for a run, I'm trying to get back to doing daily life things...like standing in the kitchen for more then 10min or sitting on my own for longer then 30min etc. So, like I said before, I am SO grateful that building a strong body is my job and I enjoy learning about it :).....So I am rehabbing myself! I am currently daily doing either full body physio OR going on what I like to call a 'field trip' which is just a trip outside of the house. My full body physio includes such moves as this in order to build up my back from laying on the couch/lazy boy for 5 weeks. I then do quad/calf stretches and arm stretches and every 2nd day I add in 4 sets of going up and down my stairs.(just doing that, I am out of breath and sweating) Now I know this doesn't sound like my normal 5k run to warm up and then my hour hardcore cross-training workouts I use to do, but this is where my body is at right now and believe it or not, I am ok with this. People keep saying to me how hard it must be for me to only be able to do so little. But I am not finding it very hard because A) I am just happy to be here! and B) I have already gone on this journey when I started this whole journey to health while weighting over 250lbs. It was hard and it didn't always feel good, but I stuck too it and things got better and I got stronger....so this is my plan this time around and I must say that I'm really thankful that I am not going through it alone. All your support, e-mails, Facebook messages, texts and visits have really helped me live in my awesome and not feel alone as I go along this new journey!...THANK YOU!!! AND I REALLY hope that you are all living in your awesome too! xoxo <3

The GOOD, the BAD and the AWESOME!

Just a warning ahead of time that this post is very detailed and may be disturbing to some people. No I'm not being funny I just want to prepare you ahead of time :) Ok so where to start!?....I guess where I left off eh! Lets start with the GOOD ~ So I was pregnant with my 3rd child and feeling awesome! I was still out almost everyday even into my 8th month where the only type of exercise I could do and get out to do was walking. I would leave 10-15min early to get the two boys at the bus and walk up and down the street. Everything was going fine until 2 weeks before he came......now for the BAD ~ I started feeling that things were not right, mostly mentally. I know they talk about prego brain but it was starting to effect how I was able to take care of myself and my children. At my doctors visits I noticed that I kept dropping in weight, something I knew was not right OR good since I should have been gaining half a pound to a pound a week at the end there. I would sit for 2hrs at a time in my home looking out the window not talking, no TV on nothing through the day on my own in silence (totally NOT like me!). Then I would get so tired I would 'crash' and go sleep for like 3hrs...so that's 5hrs and I hadn't remembered to eat or take some water and who knows how long before that I had done it. I started getting worried that I would forget the kids at the bus so I had to ask friends and family to come at 3pm and give the kids snack and be there until my husband got home...it was just becoming too much of a safety issue!! What was happening was that I had developed Post-partum Depression...I had NO idea that you could get this before the baby came! Now as a teenager I had delt with depression and therefore knew where this road lead too (an experience which would now safe me and the baby's life!) I could just feel this 'fog' coming over me and I was in the background yelling to get out, but the fog was getting thicker and I was getting weaker to fight it. It all came to a head in my 37th week where on the Mon I had said to the doctors and my husband and family that although I am sitting in the chair out of it and crying and not myself I am NOT thinking about hurting me or the baby.......then on Thurs night I didn't recognize the feeling (cause it was to random and I didn't get this with my other two kids) but I started having contractions, which would wake me up at night. Now the only thing thru all this that was helping me JUST keep my head above water was that I slept like a rock at night and during my naps during the day....now that was gone :/........So on the Fri night I was up and pacing around the house while everyone was sleeping and the 'voices/chatter/noise' in my head was getting really loud and I just wanted to pull my hair out and scream. Then a little voice of reason said, "Well no you can't do that you'll wake up everyone!".....that's when I realized that the voice of reason was getting weaker and I questioned myself how much longer I was going to be able to 'fight' against this. My c-section was set for that Thurs, however on the next morning (Sat) I said to my husband that I understood why women would step in front of a train to make this end, "REALLY!" was his surprised answer, which caught my attention and that's when I realized things were NOT going in the right direction. I had gone from, "I'm not thinking of hurting myself" to "I understand why some one would end it!" NOT COOL!!!....Sun morning I woke up with a pain on my side that went away pretty fast (another contraction, but I still didn't realize it) I was trying to talk myself into making it to Thurs when the 'baby date' was set but I couldn't even think of going through another night let alone 3 more days. At this point I was now into my 38th week. So after talking with my hubby we packed my bag and went to the hospital, I was NOT going to leave until they helped me and I felt that taking the baby out was going to do that. I prayed all the way there that I could find the words to explain to them what was going on with me and asked God for the energy and brain power to get through this as I knew it was going to take a lot of energy I wasn't sure I had. When I got there I right away started telling the nurse JUST what was going on. I was not embarrassed to sound 'crazy' at all I had to fight for me, my kids and this baby. I had the Crisis Nurse in tears as I said to her, "Listen I know I am speaking well and asking for help and it LOOKS like I am dealing with this well, but I'm telling you it's not heading in the right direction! YOU NEED TO HELP ME!I have an awesome husband, 2 amazing kids and amazing life and I am NOT willing to check out on them mentally OR physically right now and I can't guarantee I won't do that right now. YOU NEED TO HELP ME!!!!"......ok now for the AWESOME~ They were looking at putting me in the Physic ward to keep me and the baby safe until the Thurs because they wanted to keep the baby in for as long as they can, but 2 miracle's happened. 1. It just happened that my family doctor happen to be in the hospital seeing another patient....when I heard that I kid you not I felt Gods hand on my left shoulder and something say to me, "It's going to be ok, you did the leg work to get here I'll take it form here"..I knew that my doctor would help and advocate for us and that's just what she did. The second miracle was that as I got up to go to the bathroom I felt one of those 'pains' again I paused for a moment and the nurse asked if I was ok. I said it was ok, just the baby moving and hurting me (which is what I had thought those pains were) "Really!!" was her surprised reaction...which caught my attention again. Then I started putting things together. I asked them to hook me up to the monitor and 10min later it was confirmed that I was having contractions and because I am high risk for a natural birth they were now going to have to do the c-section that day, "THAT'S THE BEST FUCKING NEWS I HAVE HEARD IN 2 WEEKS!!!!" I said to the nurse! LOL! (sorry for the F bomb but trust me it was fitting)......So it's funny cause the number 3 has always been my lucky number and because this all happened and the baby came early I ended up having my 3rd son,on the 3rd day of March (the third month) 2013!!!! His birthdate is 03/03/13! Crazy eh!! To help me get some sleep and for them to keep an eye on my because they were not sure if I would be ok after I had the baby they took him to the nursery for the night. I tell you I opened my eyes the next morning ME!! I was back! The fog was 100% gone! I even thought to myself, "I'm back! Oh thank God, I missed me, I like me!!" LOL! So here I am happy and well with my sweet 7lb 10oz Landon Van Awesome Ok SO lets start that all over again.....first the GOOD ~ I had him on the Sun evening and on Wed afternoon we were sent home after the doctors and Pyshic doctor all approved it....I knew I would be fine mentally after the baby was out and I was right (thank goodness!)......So here I am on the Fri with Landon in the sling for the first time. The weather was beautiful that day and the big kids were biking out front so I took some time to get some fresh air and exercise and walk up and down in front of our house. Physically and mentally I was feeling SO great and excited about my family's future......Now for the BAD ~ That weekend I ended up getting a sinus infection it hit me so hard AND I had a new born that I didn't get myself to the walk in for antibiotics (plus I'm not one to get sick too much and didn't really know how bad this could be/get) after a really sucky week of having to lay around and get better I started feeling like it was going away...on the Fri I even went out grocery shopping with the baby just to get out for a short while. Then on the Sat night I woke up and could feel strep throat coming on (I know that feeling cause I have had it a few times) "NO NO NO forget this, I'm going to the walk in for some Meds!" I told hubby so I left him with the 3 kids (which he handled just fine and that is why he is Mr. Van Awesome!) My Mom took me to the walk-in and I got the meds in me that day.....by the Mon evening I was feeling better and even took my oldest to his Beaver group just so get a chance to get out of the house.....Tues morning (4 weeks after having Landon) hubby got the big kids off to school and left for work. I sat up to nurse the baby and noticed that I was sore on the left side of my abdomen on the inside and I felt like I had a fever. As I sat there feeding him I could feel blood starting to pour out of my vagina, A LOT of it!...so I put the baby down and went to the toilet where I saw that was coming out like water, "Oh this can't be good!" I thought. My Mom just happen to call and check in with me and I told her what was going on. She was heading into Toronto for an appointment but turned right around and came to help me...which was good cause I was just trying to figure out what I should do and had thought of calling 911 for some help. My Mom took care of the baby and drove us both to my family doctor...where my doctor tried to see what was going on with the specula but there was too much blood. As she took it out of me she had to hold her hand under it as the blood poured off of it as she brought it to the sink. She then had to use her fingers to see if she could feel what was wrong. I laid on the bed screaming and crying in pain as she tried to do that and the only thing that came from that was that it hurt for her to touch the most on the left side where I was sore. She wanted a some more advice as to what could be wrong so she sent me to the GYNO that I had been seeing. Now I'm not going to say his name because I think I caught him on a bad day or something because he was so great when I used him for my last 2 kids, and I will be writing a letter into him in hopes that he won't do this to another woman.......At this point the pain inside is getting worse, I have to sit leaning to the right side and can't walk very well so I was laying on the exam bed when he came in the room. "How's it going?" he asked. "Yeah not good!" I said....he looked at my file and asked how the antidepressants were going. I let him know that the PPD was no longer an issue, I didn't take any and all that has cleared up now. He then asked if I was breast feeding, I explained that I was and that NO the blood was not period blood. He then went on to ask me why my family doctor had not set up an ultra sound or called to talk to him instead of his secretary. All I could reply was, "I don't know"....he didn't examine me at all, he didn't even touch me or take my temperature!! I was suggesting things to him that it might be and his only response was, "Well I don't know, I'll have to set up an ultra sound"....so my Mom was packing up the baby and we were getting ready to leave when his secretary handed us the paper and said, "Ok I set up your ultra sound appointment for tomorrow at 2:30pm" WAIT! WTF!!!! My Mom and I just stared at her while I had a vision of me laying in bed at home bleeding out, shivering with fever and whatever was going on inside was getting worse and dying on my family at home in our bed. NO WAY!!!! I called the doctor out of the other exam room he was in and said, "Ok the only way that I can get an ultra sound right now is to go to emerg right?!"...."Well yeah" He said.....so off we went to Emerg. When they heard what my symptoms were I didn't wait more then 5min in the waiting room. They had me in, tested and ultra sounded. It turns out that I had a blood clot and infection on my uterus wall and if I hadn't been on the antibiotics from 2 days ago for the strep it would have been life threatening!!! Wholly shit!! That's just a little too close for comfort! That week I stayed on the meds but they were not helping, I still had the fever and I couldn't get off the couch, I wasn't getting better. So the next week I was put on a strong med which started helping me, but on day 4 I woke up having an allergic reaction to the meds!! REALLY! REALLY!!! I was starting to not feel so positive about things at this point and this whole thing was really starting to take it's toll on me emotionally as I am NOT the type of person were crappy thing after crappy thing keeps happening....so I had to stop them and I was back at the doctors the next day.....her suggested course of treatment from that day is working and from that day on the major medical issues have stopped happening so that's really refreshing!......Ok now for the AWESOME ~ First I just want to say that Landon (baby awesome) has been fine through all this. He was born at 7lbs 10oz and on his 1mth check up he weight in at 10lb 13oz so the child is growing! He has been a shining light for me to cuddle and hold as I have been laying on the couch/bed/lazy boy through all of this. Next, for the last, now going on 8 weeks amazing family and friends that heard about what was happening have been coming to help us. They have been coming to take care of the big kids, bringing them gifts and craft things to keep them busy, taking them for play dates and staying into the evening when hubby had to work late to give them a bath and put them to bed. They have been helping me. Some morning I had to text for help to just get out of bed in the morning and within that hour they were at my house helping me and taking care of me and the baby. They have been bringing food and groceries and snacks and meals to us...I just can't believe it!...and they are STILL doing it!!...A Moms group that I'm apart of on Facebook set up a meal train for us at mealtrain.com where people sign up each day to they will be bringing you a meal and what it will be!!...I never knew there was such a thing! Some of these woman I have never met face to face and only know through seeing their name on Facebook! The kindness is over whelming....at one point I answered the door and there stood a lady who introduced herself as Kelly. She then said, "Hi! I don't cook but I know that you are healthy so I brought you this fruit try" WHAT!!! OMG!! How amazing was that!, and how did she know I am healthy??!.....It has been a very strange experience for me to hand over my home and children to other people to care for 100%...I had no choice I couldn't do it. I simply sat in awe on the lazy boy chair while these woman and men came into my home,did my dishes my laundry and other chores and ran errands for me...I couldn't believe this was happening and I was SO over whelming grateful for it as they were helping me take care of the most priceless things in my life when I couldn't..my family......And my husband is so grateful for the help too as he has been burning the candle at both ends with trying to go to work, take care of me, take care of the baby the bigs kids and the house...the poor man is So tired and he doesn't stop trying to do it all xo <3. So I know it has been a long story and I thank you for reading to the end. I do have to say that I am really thankful to have goon through all this. I know that sounds strange but it has only made me and my family better for it. Allowing all this love and support into our lives and accepting it has been an amazing experience. This has changed me on the inside for the better and I pray often to God that moving forward I stay open to the love and support that people want to give me, because I have learned that it becomes a win win situation and all parties involved walk away from it better for it and feeling more connected to each other... So in the end we all get to live in our awesome together! xo <3

We came full circle!

Ok so I know I am behind in staying up to date with this Blog, but I've been a little busy....to say the least! As you know I first started my 'Fan page' because I was going to the casting call for the Marilyn Denis show. They were looking for people who had a 'passion' for something, so I decided that I would try out and go tell my story. They required you to make a demo tape to bring with you. So I made my demo tape (you can watch it here) and then I posted it on the Fan Page I created in order to get some support......well my friends all I have to say is follow your dreams/goals/hopes no matter what because this is how we came full circle..... - I posted my demo video on Facebook - Other Woman saw it and started e-mailing me asking for help in starting their own journey to healthy living - I got certified as a personal trainer in order to learn more personally, this then helped me out professionally as well - I then started my own One-on-one Personal Training Business called Bring out YOUR Awesome - While learning about how to own my own business I found Tweeter - In 2 weeks of being on Tweeter I met Sam who has her own Business training pregnant woman and post-partum woman - We stayed in contact for 2yrs through Facebook here and there - Then one day I saw that she posted she was looking to interview someone for TV about their personal journey to a healthy lifestyle. -I responded to the post saying I could do it if she wanted, what was it for and when? - She replied back that it was the next week and it was as a guest in the audience for the Marilyn Denis show!!!!!! WTF!!!! Are you kidding me!! That was all ment to be in a really strange way. I had put the idea of being on the show as something that wasn't going to happen but have always been grateful for what did all come out of it. With meeting all the people who asked me for help and starting on a new career path that I totally LOVE! Being on the show was totally awesome! It wasn't the way I thought it would happen that's for sure! LOL!...I had more in mind being on the show healthy and fit and looking normal...instead I was on there healthy, fit and huge pregnant!! I gave birth 2 weeks after the show aired! LOL!.....but I must say, although my body might not have been small anymore I was still very healthy and getting the rewards of it. I took the train down to T.O and then walked my 8 1/2 month preggo ass from Union Station to her studio in a fancy pair'o boots with no issue....it was almost 2k each way!!! Who does that! LOL!!

Then/Now the pregnant edition :)

I must say this has been another interesting journey this whole being pregnant and still being healthy and active. If there is one main thing I have learned that I want to pass on, that is that you don't have to let your body be taking over totally and that pregnant woman can be active through the whole pregnancy. Now that 'being active' looks different as you go along and will change, but from the start my goal was to stay in motion :)

So here is the now for 2 months (I didn't have any 2 month ones from before) I was very fortunate that I didn't have morning sickness or felt sick at all. I would just get REALLY dumb tired in the afternoon. So as long as I made sure I had a nap I was good to go train in the evening. Differences that I noticed was that I would have to stop sooner or couldn't go as fast as I needed to stop to catch my breath....I also would stop before I needed to, I stopped pushing it at this point and made sure that I didn't get to hot :)

Here is the 4 month one. The runs were becoming walks at this point. Sometimes I'd go for a run and could run the whole way other times I had to walk...I just went with my how my body was feeling. I did start to find some other low impact things to do. Like climbing the stairs! Normally I do it 4x I was only able to do it 3x and I was slow but I always felt great after I did it and I was keeping up my goal of 'staying in motion!' I would also head to the gym to swim/bike and go on the cross trainer. I found the days that I got some exercise I felt less 'pregnant' LOL!

Here is the 6 month ones. I was finding anyway I could to get outside and move. LOVED the day the family walked around Crawford Lake on the board walk. It was awesome when my son said, "Can we go back around the other way?!" I was able to say "yes!" and go with them :) We were out there for over 2hrs...stopping to have snacks of course! ***** Now comes in the really life and I'm not going to lie. From the 6 month mark to almost 8 months I had a hard time. The weather had changed and I couldn't walk outside anymore, due to it being SO cold and icy and snowy. It was also Christmas and everywhere you go there was 'treats' out. I didn't come up with a plan to do something else since I wasn't going outside anymore. I also stopped going to the gym cause I just couldn't handle everyone staring at me, and the normal workouts I was doing was starting to take too much out of me. Then the monster pregnant cravings for sweets kicked in EKK!!! One night I ate 3 brownies while I was making dinner!!! :O AND at the doctors she was surprised to see that my weight had gone up 10 lbs in 4 weeks!....but then at the next doctors visit 4 weeks after that I had gone up another 12 lbs!....but what is more important then the numbers is that I was feeling it :(....I was getting sore and achey and not moving very much. I got into a groove of asking others to do things for me so I didn't have to go up the stairs or walk over to some where etc....I was NOT feeling awesome :( SO I got my shit together! I committed to a group of ladies to meet them at the mall Sunday mornings and do mall walking with them. It was a little hard the first time because I hadn't moved in awhile but afterwards I felt good about doing something healthy for my body again and I was proud of myself....so I got a little taste of the awesome again and I was off!!!!!

So here is the 8 month one. This is me out walking with the boys as they ride their bikes (Hubby came to). It was a very warm day in Jan and I was in the mind frame of moving again so I said, "OK family come outside and join Mommy for her walk!" We were out there for 45min at least :) Since that first Sunday mall walk I now go out and walk pretty much everyday. Instead of leaving to get the boys off the bus for 3pm I leave at 2:40pm instead and walk up and down the streets until the bus comes. This makes such a difference in how my body feels!! My tail bone doesn't hurt me, my hips don't hurt me and I am back to going up and down the stairs to get things myself again. My last doctors appointment showed that I have lost 5 lbs! Don't worry people this was not baby weight I lost it was the extra ass weight that I had gained.....but most importantly it just shows that I have made some good changes to the path I was starting to go down. I have the food back in order again. I spent a day prepping healthy homemade muffins, oatmeal snacks and peanut butter energy balls, as well as freezing a bunch of fruit and yogurt to be ready for some whey protein smoothies :) So Mama awesome is back!!!! :-D and really grateful for the lessons that I have learned along the way. Now I am gearing up with the head coach of Mommy's/Babe's in Motion to start our Triathlon training in the spring. I am due on March 7/13......come on out baby awesome!!!! Tri season is starting soon!!!!! LOL! 'Live in YOUR Awesome!'