I don't think of Mer every min of the day like I did when she first passed but I still think of her at many points during my day. I contuine to exercise and do my homework that is given to us for the race, but as I physically move through the motions I feel like my heart is still back there with Meredith.
I never use to need to hear peoples words of encouragment while I was exerciseing to keep me going before. They were nice to hear but I wasn't in need of them...these days I seem to need them!?
We did our trail run training on Sun and it was just a beauitful day for it, the only thing that would have made it better is if all the ladies of the team could have made it :(....we missed you chicks for sure!
But we needed to run the whole way...and I didn't. Not because I couldn't...I guess just cause I gave up. Which is REALLY strange for me. One of the times I was walking I was thinking to myself about the reason why I stopped running...this is when I realized that I can physically move but my heart seems to be two steps behind me.
As I finished off the trail, I was walking it and planned to finish it walking. But Amy who had already finished turned around and yelled, "Come ON Gail!!!"...and I thought, "AW crap alright" and I finished the trail running. I realized it was a strange feeling that I needed thouse words of encouragement....strange and I don't really know where I'm going with this but I'll have to do it one step at a time I guess. Good thing the 'big guy in the sky' knows what he's doing and put me in with a great group of ladies who are very encouraging...dude knows what I need before I need it :D
So our homework has increased and we will be needing to be working out 6 days a week, good thing I already workout 4-6 a week already GESH!
But as a stay at home mama with two little kids who are with me pretty much 24/7 I'm going to have to get creative...so the plan tonight is take the kids out to the field behind my house, plop them in the middle of the field with some balls and other toys while I run and do my exercise. Then head home to bath them put them to bed, give my hubby a high five in the hallway as he comes home from his second job and I head out to do swimming training at the pool for the Tri that I am doing in Sept....man I feel tired just typing it!
Ok I better head out before I change my mind :)
The group sure makes a difference. I know when I see everyone waiting up ahead of me I feel more energy. I want to lift those legs, push a little harder as if I am running to the finish line. You were fantastic on Sunday. I wish I could go as fast as the rest of you...So keep up the great work. You are getting in your work out tonight...THAT's AMAZING...I can only do a few exercises tonight. I can barely walk HEE HEE HEE
ReplyDeleteYOU are amazing Gail!!!
ReplyDeleteAnd very creative, taking kiddies to mid-field to play while you do one of the homeworks.
You're doing great... keep up the energy and hard work :-)