So as much as I would like to stay positive I have to say that some new things have been thrown in my path lately and I'm REALLY having a hard time with one of them. That one is the financial issue that we are having :( With my husbands second summer job done in Oct and our truck breaking down and us having to buy a van AND Christmas, we are deep under. The statement "I have no money" has NEVER rung more true then it does these days!
The biggest part of this problem for me is the social isolation that it causes mostly being, me not being able to go out to Phat Chicks boot camp....my life and breath. This makes me the saddest.
I thought that I would be ok as I could run outside and go to the gym (I'm still locked into a contract) and for the first two weeks it was ok...then I realized I wasn't Laughing Out Loud anymore. I would just put my music in my ears and do my thing...on my own. Now it's funny cause in the beginning that was fine with me. But after experiencing the group fun at boot camp and encouraging on other people, I miss being around the people. There's something that is awesome about seeing a new girl join us and get faster and stronger each week and seeing her start to smile and feel great about herself. Or seeing one of the girls kids run up to her after class and tell her what a great job she did :D....I'll NEVER forget the time I saw Suzie pushing one of our Phat dudes to bang out 4 more push-ups and his 8yr son was there beside him saying, "Come on DAD!!! Come on DAD you can do it!!"....WOW!! that kind of experience is not something you get to see everyday and it changes your insides.....In fact I have tears just typing out that story.
So in the mean time I'll do my own hardcore work out at the gym and in my living room cause I know the Phat Chicks are out there 5 days a week and I want to be able to keep up :D....I run my runs cause I want to be able to race with them again some day and I WILL keep up with them!! :D
I just wish the sadness would go away cause I REALLY miss LOL while exercising...
"Live in YOUR Awesome!"
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You have to remember that you are an inspiration to so many women and that alone should make YOU smile! Be proud of everything that you have accomplished and don't let the tough times get you down (which is so easy to do....especially harder in the long winter that you are having). Just try to keep focused and know that exercising is also part of a way to save our sanity in those tough times! :-)You are doing great!
ReplyDeleteI struggle with the 'on my own' part of it too but it's a good exercise (haha exercise) to do things on your own now and then. It won't be long til you are back with your group and until then find your own LOL moments. Once my ankle heals we can run together, well you can walk, I'll run and you can LOL at me ALL DAY LONG. :-)
ReplyDeleteThanks ladies for the kind words :D xoxox
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